My Anxiety Driven Life
I was taking a shower on Saturday while my husband was with our two little kids in the living room. And I hear one of my kids make some noises and yet my husband said nothing. While I know it's probably nothing and that my husband is with them, my mind couldn't help but think of disastrous scenarios. So my shower sucked, I was tense and rushed to get out so I could see what was going on. And of course all was fine. And it dawned on me that this, Anxiety, is what I need to write about.
Since becoming a mother my anxiety has risen to levels it never had before. I've dealt with anxiety for years but it was always secondary to depression, which I've also been dealing with for years. It wasn't until my most recent visit to the doctor that I realized that my anxiety was affecting more than ever. From changing a diaper, to planing our activities to even turning down being intimate with my husband, this anxiety stuff has taken over.
I went to the doctor because I tapered off my previous anti depressant and realized soon after that I definitely needed to be on a different medication. In talking about my issues and how I'm currently feeling, it was clear to both of us that I needed to take something that focused more on helping my anxiety.
It has been a week since I started my new medication and I can already feel a difference it has made in my mood. I'm not sure just how much it is helping with anxiety yet but I read that I may take some time. I will continue to reflect and write about it soon.
Thanks for reading!